Life Definition?
Do you remember, when you were a child and you looked at life in a total sense of wonder and awe?
Remember when you were alone walking along the street and watching the sky, wondering why the Moon was following you?
Or do you still remember when you were a child, you were asked about what your dream or goals would be when you grow up? And you answered it proudly.
Yup, you do... You have an answer during that time.
Now?
Did you achieve it?
Or rather, you are puzzled about what the real purpose of your life is?
And now, may you be on the mode of depression peak of your life and no maps to continue?
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The definition of life is very open, free, and subjective. Just the same as the definition of LOVE.
It depends on how you interpret your life...
Personal point of view right?
So, for me... life, in general, is about your journey to get to know YOURSELF.
In various aspects of life such as spiritual, family, health, social, financial (career), mental and emotional. Everything needs to be balanced with your needs and abilities.
The question is, do you live this life simply to survive with the survival concepts or with eternal future planning?
And do you manifest a real love during that journey or do you just go through it with the emptiness of your soul?
Or during your journey of life, did you taste the sweetness of faith and discover your true self?
Do you? Or you are the missing soul in this universe of diversity?
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And yeah, that person was me...
A person who was lives this life just to keep surviving and focusing on making my family proud, getting a good job with a good salary. Focused on the views of the surrounding community, my work, and my income. Until I forgot how to take care of my physical, mental and emotional health. Carrying my empty soul with physical endurance without spiritual faith. While my soul is thirsty and in need of a spiritual supply.
A missing soul that is about to die...
But I continue to make people around me feel happy and proud of my accomplishments. The achievement that I am striving for is due to their demands. Meanwhile, here I am alone suffering and depressing my heart and mind about the future that I will face if I stop for it and go to pursue my dreams.
However, I can't stop...because they need me. So, I let myself struggle with all sorts of fears with this empty soul. Stay in the darkroom of my little heart, moaning and crying. Longing for the memories of my childhood. A time when I was full of enthusiasm and ambition as if I was strong enough to fight all obstacles ahead.
Then, in that fears, through ups and downs...with a broken heart and depressions with a lot of questions in my mind, I began to ask myself, what is my real target, my goals in this life?
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Gladly, I found it! What the purpose of my life was...
Starting by finding what I was missing and lacking in this self, one by one. Then finally, I realized that one of the most important things I was missing from myself is LOVE. Not love for other human beings, but love for oneself.
A SELF-LOVE.
Suddenly, I remembered the memories of my sixth-grade. A very deep question once asked by my counselor at the time. The question is, "Who is the top 1 person you love the most in your life?" Haha.. and yeah I got the answer! It was me! I should love me first!
So, now I am in the learning process of loving myself and getting to know myself more deeply. Treat me better by giving a reward for every little thing I made such as enough rest, praying on time (5 times a day), buying my craving foods, doing my skincare, and so on (All kinds of self-treatment). I prepared a checklist note of "To-Do-List" for any next task and a "Bucket list" as my target rewards after doing any task.
Then, change the concept of survival into the life journey of a servant who comes from Allah and will return to Him, with a sufficient supply of the grace of love from Allah, which is for me to be able and worthy to enter His Garden of Paradise (My eternal future planning, In shaa Allah)
And...I realized one more thing that is the most magical part, I lost for so long time...It was about "Gratitude"
Yeah, it was gratitude...
“…Anyone who is grateful does so to the profit of his own soul…” (31:12)
“…If anyone desires a reward in this life, We shall give it to him; and if anyone desires a reward in the Hereafter, We shall give it to him. And swiftly shall We reward those that (serve us with) gratitude.” (3:145)
“If you are grateful, I would certainly give you more; and if you are ungrateful, My chastisement is truly severe.” (14:7)
“And whatever of blessings and good things you have, it is from Allah.” (16:53)
In conclusion, gratitude is the way of counting your blessings, and by that, your life will become more beautiful for you to go through. Also, that is the best way in loving yourself in the way to achieve your "Final Destination"
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In Shaa Allah, there is nothing impossible, but I'm Possible could make it happen!... ^____^ (To be continued ~ hihi)
Spread Love, Peace ✌❤
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